Monday, January 13, 2014

Justin's Third Heavenly Anniversary

Today, January 11, 2014, Justin DeSha-Overcash has been absent from all of our lives for three very long years. Oddly; like everything else in this world it seems almost like 'yesterday'. I do not like that Justin is gone; no I do not like it one bit.

“As my sufferings mounted I soon realized that there were two ways in which I could respond to my situation -- either to react with bitterness or seek to transform the suffering into a creative force. I decided to follow the latter course.”
― Martin Luther King Jr.

Decades ago I prayed to the Lord that during my life on this planet all I wished to know ~ [was true love and true happiness] and HE gifted me with Justin. Justin taught me true love, patience, joy, to put others before myself and his mere presence in my life gave me the greatest happiness I have ever known [or will ever know until we meet again].

I know that no amount of praying, wishing, begging, bartering or thoughts of penance will bring Justin home. I still find great difficulty in coming to grips that Justin's presence, love, hugs, laughter, kindness, gentle nature and friendship could be taken away.

Life is empty and this is okay. Life is tedious and this is okay. Life is not fun any longer...this too is okay. I had a blast for 32 years and then I had Justin in my life for the next 22 years and I had no idea life could get even better! So I am truly much better off than some people who have never known love and happiness; even if I never find either again.

Justin and I remain connected with an unseen [cord]; if you do not believe my words that is fine. However, I know that Justin watches over me to protect me from the harshest reality of human actions.

Babe I really miss you, I know you're aware I talk to you all of the time! I so desperately wish things had not happened as they did honey....I wish nothing had happened at all....just our typical boring, uneventful life, aw Babe.....

I remain Justin's [loving, devoted and sad] momma throughout time and space I'll look for you among the stars Honey!